Possibly deeply common. In fact, I know it is. Still unnerving — still enraging — at this point still part of my growth/healing, part of which is writing words like this and reminding myself that the quality and feeling of the response has changed: now less of an assault or transport back to pain; now more of a shedding; reminder that my body has recalled but it continues to repair and take on new lessons (of safety, of rewiring) to the point where there one day may be no residue, no new pencil marks to make. 

I do not wish you ill but wonder how much you have cried?